I woke up this morning, and I realized something while lying in bed. I realized that I've done nothing with my life. I waste every day surfing the web, play addictive online games, and watching TV, while I should be studying for school, or atleast doing something creative. But every time I start on an assignment I feel the urge to do something else. I feel the need to do laundry, or maybe check my e-mail. Heck even house work if I can't think of anything else to do. I know what I'll do.. I'll write a blog about how unmotivated I feel about doing homework....

I think we all go through a phase in our lives where we're confused. We just don't know what to do anymore, where we want to go, what we want to be. It's hard because there are so many choices that we face everyday yet, we have almost very little choice in those choices. Complicated? Welcome to my world. Enjoy your stay. Don't let the door hit you on the way out.

I have been a cool dewd. I have been a l33t h@><0rs. I have been a nerd. I have been a jock. I have been a raver. I have been everything inbetween. But I have never really been myself. They are always mask. Shells to protect myself behind. People always expect us to be something or someone. Males to be Strong and healthy. To be good at sports, and know all about how to fix things. Women must be small and demure. They must be able to cook, clean, and do other house hold chores. Yes these are sterotypes, but nonetheless cause us to self reflect and self evaluate our self worth based on these sterotypes. In moder day society, we can't just "be". We have to "be something".